Just another, unedited/sloppy post of the random thoughts rolling around in my head today…
It is so nice to have some flowers blooming inside – right now I have 2 cacti and an orchid blooming.
It was bitter cold this morning so there was a two hour delay and that always seems to mess up my schedule. I should be able to just go with the flow but it never seems to go that way.
I had a good time at the retreat although there was no planning done. I did read 3 books, make some yarn from old tee shirts and get most of the templates made for the girl’s quilt. I just couldn’t seem to get a grip on what I want to do this year. There are so many things that need done but I have no desire/motivation to do them. Wish I could pay someone else to take of them for me. Actually I probably could pay someone to do some of them but I’m not willing to spend that much money on things that I really should be doing myself.
I had been looking forward to a visit with family and some high school friends but it looks like the weather and a reoccurrence of the bedbugs are going to put a stop to that plan. I’ll have to try again – maybe over Easter break?
I’m feeling so blah today – need to get off the computer and try to at least finish the laundry before the guys get home.
Hope you’re having a great, warm day wherever you are.
Just another, unedited/sloppy post of the random thoughts rolling around in my head today…
I’m gathering together all the stuff I’ll need for my annual planning retreat. I just realized that I’ve been doing this for the past 7 years. It has really been a great experience. I love the location, the people who are there are so friendly and it is just a joy to be there. Plus the food is fantastic and I don’t have to cook it or clean up afterwards.
One of the things I’m concentrating on this year is to really look at the things in my house and decide whether I want to keep them or not. I have a collection of perfume/lotion/moisturizers that I’ve bought or been given over the years. Some I’ve “saved” for special events, some I got when people died and I didn’t want to throw them away, others I’ve bought because I “should” be using them and some I’ve bought because I wanted but haven’t gotten around to using. I’ve started to actually use some of them and I’m deciding whether to keep or toss others.
In a similar vein, I used to hate throwing away food (children are starving in Africa, you know) but I just tossed some packaged quinoa with kale(I know – I shouldn’t be buying packaged foods, baby steps people, baby steps). No one really liked and in the past I would have let it sit in the fridge or put it the hubby’s lunch or try to doctor it up but this time I just threw it out. It felt so good to just be done with it.
Oh what a difference a few days makes. Saturday it was sunny and mid fifties. I was out cleaning up the yard and thinking about what to grow this spring. Now today it’s in the twenties and I just shoveled the sidewalk for the second time. At least I didn’t have to clean off my windshield before heading out.
In an effort to be more efficient, I decided to follow the advice of scheduling a bunch of errands for today. The plan was – a dentist appointment, a meeting with a financial planner, picking up a prescription, stopping at the bank to deposit some checks and get some small bills to pay allowances and lunch with a friend. Then I was reminded why I don’t do this – the dentist appointment went longer than they thought it would, I needed to shovel the sidewalk, there was a snow squall as I was driving to lunch, I couldn’t find my deposit slips and I completely forgot about the prescription. It may cost me more in time and gas but the peace of mind I get is worth spreading things out over the course of a few days. I’ll have to look elsewhere to be more efficient.
I need to get off the computer and figure out what’s for dinner. Wherever you are, I hope you are having a great day.
So, I’m supposed to go on retreat this weekend since I postponed my original date to stay home with the girl who was grounded( hubby and son were going on a cub scout camping trip and wouldn’t be home to supervise her). This has been on the calendar since mid-January – it was not something that just popped up out of nowhere. This morning my hubby says he’s not sure if A. he can pick up the boy afterschool on Friday and B. be around this weekend to supervise the boy. In a normal family this would not be a problem because the teenage daughter would just have to babysit her nine year old brother.
Unfortunately, we are not a normal family. Teenage daughter and nine year old brother can not be together unsupervised for more than a few minutes before one of them does something that causes the other one to have a meltdown and then WW3 begins. So hubby says can’t you find someone to A. pick up the boy afterschool and watch him for an hour until the girl gets home and B. ask someone to take the boy for a couple of hours on Saturday. This should not be a problem for a normal mom but see above – we are not a normal family.
What if I do the unthinkable and ask for help? Why you may ask is that unthinkable. Mainly because I have an extremely hard time asking anyone for help. It causes me enormous stress to even think about asking for help. There are many reasons – I don’t want to be a bother, I don’t want to seem needy, I think my family should be able to handle things if I can’t, I worry about what others will think of me, I worry about how my child will behave, I worry that I won’t be able to return the favor, and on and on.
Today however, I was looking at my vision board and saw the Eleanor Roosevelt quote – Do one thing everyday that scares you. So I did it. I asked a mom at the bus stop if she could watch Matthew for a couple of hours this weekend. I offered her the two options and she volunteered for both! I nearly cried I was so relieved to have actually done it and so grateful that she said yes. Of course I am still worried that the boy will misbehave or that she thinks I’m a bother but I’m going to try and not think about those things. Instead I’m going to be proud of myself for asking for help and for making sure that I get what I need — some time away/some time for myself this weekend.
After reading over this I want to add that it is a busy time for my husband – he is shutting down his business and moving equipment into a new building. I’m just frustrated that he ended up doing it on this weekend when he knew that I wouldn’t be around. I feel like he should have planned things a bit better since he has been working on this for the last two months. I feel like the family’s needs have not been considered lately and it has been stressing me out a bit. I don’t know if things could have been handled any better but I wish they had been handled differently.
Once again, here is a round up of random thoughts…
I love going away for awhile. It is so nice to have someone cook and do the dishes. There is real joy in not having to come up with a menu plan.
I did get a bit off track with my sleeping. I was up later but I also didn’t wake as early. I got my 8 hours but they were not very comfortable or restful hours.
I was able to get some of my mending done but mostly I just read, relaxed and ate. I will have to be very serious about getting some exercise in this week.
DD, DS and I all have appointments this week. They will see the orthodontist and I will be seeing the dentist. They are having routine check ins and I am getting my new bridge.
It is bitterly cold here. I haven’t done much walking barely made it to ten thousand steps yesterday. Need to try to pick it up today and get a few more.
Guess that’s it for now. hope to be back again soon
Here are the random thoughts rolling around in my head today…
It is annoying to try to type with a sticky keyboard!
I’ve been offline for awhile for several reasons lately. It was extremely busy here over the holidays, I’ve been in a funk, I’ve been sharing the computer, I haven’t known what to share and what to keep to myself, lack of time – – I could go on and on but I’ll stop here.
I do intend to keep writing but I’m not sure what the content will be. Trying to do 4 posts a week is just not feasible for me. I need to decide how to make the best use of my time and what purpose I want this blog to serve.
I am working on developing healthy habits and that means limiting my time in front of this screen. There are so many sources of good information and perhaps I am better off just reading those and not trying to write my own. I just don’t know and I need to think on it.
Friday I leave on retreat again. I am so glad that I have made the commitment to go away for a weekend each January. It is a welcome respite from my daily life. Perhaps I will get some insight on my next steps. Anyway thanks for reading and commenting over the life of this little blog.
Measure Up Monday – How am I doing on my goals??
Just received information on the annual UFO Retreat. I have been there the last two years. It is mostly filled with quilters and scrapbookers but there are few others who come. For the past two years I have taken my knitting, some books and a bunch of hopes and dreams. I try to make a plan for the rest of the year in between knitting some dish cloths and reading some good books.
This year I may be brave enough to take some quilting along – we’ll see how I feel. It is still two months away so I have lots of time to make a decision. I really enjoy this weekend away but I would like to try for something a bit longer – maybe in the summer of 2013 or 2014. Would love to do something in the New Mexico/Arizona area – that would probably be better in the winter.
Way back at the beginning of this blog, I started with 6 things I wanted to accomplish by the time I reach 60. I’ve gotten away from that but I’m going to try to get back to working and reporting on them.
On Mondays I will be doing a Monthly Update Monday post with information on one of my goals. Today I am going to update my goal of solo retreats.
My goal is to take 6 solo retreats. So far I have taken 2 retreats. I believe that I will continue to take yearly retreats at the same place because I really enjoy the area, the people who come and the structure of the weekend. Plus the price is very reasonable.
I’ll try to work on my reading list so I can report on it next week. Hope you are making progress on your goals.