Just another unedited, sloppy installment of the random thoughts rolling around in my head today…
I had an interview for the part time horticulturist job and overall it went well. I didn’t make any glaring mistakes – at least I don’t think I did. After talking with them and learning about their training program, I am sure I could handle the duties. It s benefits are the part time hours, working with plants, not needing to worry about the boy being alone for hours after school and minimal interaction with other people. The drawback is that it isn’t the fabric store job.
Yes, I still can not get that job out of my head/heart. I talked with a friend and with my daughter about it and they both think I should try for it. However I just can’t seem to get it together. Every time I try to put a resume together I am struck by my lack of qualifications. I know you are supposed to sell yourself, tell why the employer would benefit from hiring you but all I can think about is how I would benefit. The girl says just go down and talk to them. It is a small company not a chain or franchise and they will be willing to hear you out. It sounds so easy – why am I having such difficulty??
Maybe because it means stepping out of my comfort zone. Or maybe I ‘d rather have the comfort of believing I could have gotten the job if only I had tried harder versus being not hired and knowing that I failed. Maybe I’m still not ready to be an adult and take on the responsibility of doing a “real” job and living up to someone else’s expectations. Or maybe I’m just hoping for my “prince” to save the day and let me go on living a life of relative ease.
UGH! too much thinking going on here – I’m going to head out to the garden to pull some weeds and get some satisfaction from actually accomplishing something.
Till next time I’m hoping that wherever you are and whatever you are doing, you are having a great day.
Just another unedited, sloppy edition of the random thoughts rolling around in my head today…
So I’ve been thinking about my “dream job” ever since I wrote about it awhile ago and lo and behold up pops a job that at first glance seemed to be the one. It was for a part time position at a fabric shop – doing a little bit of a lot of things – shop maintenance, sales, helping with design projects and social media efforts. They asked you to email a resume or just stop in, drop it off and chat. I decided to just drop in and chat since I do not have a resume. Unfortunately the person I needed to talk to was not in the shop at the time. I left my contact info and planned to write up a resume and send it in.
The aspects that make it my “dream job” were that it would be part time, it is working with fabric, it is within walking distance, the hours would be pretty good, I would get to learn more about fabric and perhaps have time to work on my projects or at last be more motivated to work on them.
Then my doubts started cropping up – I haven’t worked in years so I have no work history, I love fabric but I’m not really good at designing/matching patterns or colors, I’m too introverted to sell, I don’t know anything about social media and on and on. I tried putting together a resume but all the doubts kept creeping in and I ended up not creating anything.
Then I was going through old journals and found an entry where I had written down a description of another “dream job”. This was around having a few clients whose gardens I took care of. This would allow me to spend time outside, work with plants, have minimal interaction with others and allow me to create my own schedule. A few days after that another job posting came up. This one is for a part time horticulturist working in malls and office buildings taking care of plant installations.
I didn’t need a resume – you just had to fill out an application online. So before I had time to second guess myself I filled out the application and sent it in. I got a call and scheduled an interview. The interview went okay – I made a few mistakes but overall I think it went okay. They will be finishing up interviews this week and will let everyone know by the end of next week. So now it’s just wait and see what they have to say.
So that’s what has been happening here lately. I’ll be back tomorrow with a progress report for the 100 day challenge – hope to see a report from you as well. Until then, wherever and whatever you are doing, have a great day!