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Still Struggling

Have been trying to develop a new schedule to work around my part time job but so far it has not been working out. Mostly because I still have a bad attitude about the job. I know that it is way past time for me to “put on my big girl panties” and get on with my life but I just don’t want to! I feel guilty saying that because I know that I have been truly blessed to have been able to stay home for so long and it is no one’s fault but my own that I did not make better use of that time. I look at other women I know who didn’t/don’t have the choices I’ve had/have and I realize that I have no room to complain and yet I still do – ugh! Need to get my mind off what I wish I could have and focus on the blessings I do have because I do have many blessings.

Had the boy to the ER again – I do not know how it happened. Well actually I do know what happened, I just don’t understand how it happened. His foot got hit by a door and his toenail got bent back. It was very painful but thankfully nothing was broken. The doctor just bent the nail back down and that was it.  Seems to be healing okay.

I took a fall/slide down the stairs – I was trying to shut the door while simultaneous not step on the cat and missed the step. Since I was wearing  socks, I just started to slide and I tried to stop myself by grabbing the railing. As a result, I have a sore arm from my shoulder to my elbow and a lovely red/blue/purple bruise covering half of my butt. To make it worse it is the side I usually sleep on and that has caused a lot of awakenings throughout the night. Then I can’t get to sleep because so many things are running through my mind. I don’t know how I managed to teach and have a life at the same time. I just cannot seem to get things done anymore.

Well enough moaning and groaning – I’m off to get something done! I have bank statements to reconcile, bills to pay and tax information to sort. Hope you are doing something fun with your day.

Tidbit Tuesday

Just another sloppy, unedited installment of the random thoughts rolling around in my head today…

Glad that we escaped the 3-6 inches of snow they predicted although being able to stay home would be nice. It has just begun to snow a bit – not sure what they are calling for now but I don’t think it will be too bad until maybe this evening. Hopefully it will hold off till late.

My son and I are supposed to go to a reception at the Tech Shop. He received a scholarship for a year’s membership and there is a reception tonight to meet the people who awarded the scholarships. It is a fantastic opportunity – he is attending a 16 week Saturday session to learn about the different machines and create some projects. Later in the summer he will be able to attend a week long camp and he can go in on certain Saturdays to work on projects. So far he has been having a blast.

I’m back to struggling a bit because I dithered around too long and had to make a choice between the lesser of two evils and I’m not sure I made the right choice. I’ve chosen to help keep my husband’s dream alive; keep my son in a school that I feel will give him a good chance at being successful through its academic requirements and its post high school financial support; and stay in my(still unfinished) dream house. It means I’m no longer looking for my dream job instead I’m going back to helping my husband in his business.  I’m not sure how long this will go on but I know that I’m setting boundaries this time. It will not be an open ended adventure. Still not sure what that is going to look like but I’m working on it.

It looks like my uncle will not be the executor of my dad’s will. We were  pretty sure that would be the case but now it is definite. I may need to go down to help out – it depends on my sister and how she decides to handle her financial situation. I need to look into some legal issues to make sure that we are making the best decisions for both of us.

I’m also trying to prepare for a wedding. My daughter has decided to get married next month. It will be a small affair and she doesn’t want much help from me but there are a few things she would like me to help with and of course I need to find something to wear.

What’s going on in your neck of the woods? Leave me a comment and let me know how you are.

 

 

Dad

So, as I mentioned in my last post, I have had a major disruption in my life recently.  My Dad went into the hospital in late January and on January 29th(the day  I was to begin my 100 day challenge), my sister called to say that the doctor didn’t think our dad would make it through the night.  I threw together a few things and left.

When I got to the hospital, Dad was alert and aware but his oxygen and blood pressure were unstable. The infection had become/had been ?? a blood infection. He had been scheduled to have tests done but they were unable to perform the tests.  It became clear that it was time to move to comfort measures and let things run their course.

We brought him home and had hospice come in.  We were given an estimate of 3-5 days but he lasted just over two weeks. Luckily for us he had only minor pain at the very end and just slipped peacefully away. I can not say enough about the hospice staff. They took care of so many little details, provided us with necessary supplies and were in daily to check on dad and give him a bath.  He was really touched by the pinning ceremony they did in honor of  his Army service . We were truly blessed to have them during this time.

Between caring for my dad, searching for paperwork(insurance polices, the will, veteran service info), helping my sister to begin to clear out the house, traveling and the funeral, I have gotten way off track yet again. My original 100 day challenge has been scrapped and I’ve been working on a 50 day challenge involving getting rid of one item per day and getting the business and personal tax information together. I’m giving myself some grace and not focusing on health as much right now. I need to see tangible results each day and that isn’t as easy when I’m working on my health.

Well, that’s a quick recap of my February, what’s been happening in your neck of the woods?? Let me know by leaving a comment.

I am…

I am trying to get back on track after a major disruption to my life(more about that in a future post)

I am listening to the wind chimes and enjoying the sound

I am seeing bright sunshine after morning thunderstorms

I am looking forward to our church’s Ash Wednesday dinner and service

I am planning to focus on the discipline of prayer throughout this Lenten season

I am enjoying the smell of the lemon tree blossoms as Marco, our cat, brushes up against the tree

I am savoring a Hershey Kiss – trying to make it last as long as I can to enjoy that chocolatey sensation

I am working on a plan to make some progress with my one word 2017 challenge

I am reading  The Power of When by Michael Breus, PhD and trying to decide if I am a Lion or a Bear although with recent events I have been a Dolphin

 

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